I had a dream in which the world was ending and everything was on fire
No one chastised me for smoking a cigarette in the auditorium
The orchestra played my song beautifully note by note
You were standing there in the spotlight singing a song of your own

The day after Christmas, I finally met you,
in a bedroom down the road
I vomited that night
I vomited so much that night

You looked so pretty with your eyes closed and arms around me
And you looked so scary with your arms closed and eyes all around me
And I'd like to thank you for the sacrifice you made for me
And I'd like to thank you for the night you gave me

A cold October Monday night, you forgot my coffee
And we each drank a heavy beer,
and empathized about how much we both wanted to die
I cried myself to sleep that night, and vomited the next morning

Pinching myself to see if this is real
My nerves have no response
Self-medicate without food

In my dreams you laugh at me but really it's just me laughing at myself
I could've stopped it, I should've stopped it, I would've stopped it had I known

Repercussions making preparations,
to scare me out of my own town,
and make my life and dreams the same nightmare

In my dreams you laugh at me but really it's just me laughing at myself
I could've stopped it, I should've stopped it, I would've stopped it had I known